Saturday, June 27, 2009

Alone Again (Naturally)

This has been a great week! Thanks to my wonderful son, I got to see Dame Edna. So funny! Wonderful treat (throwing gladiola). Munched on German chocolate cake (again thanks to my son).

I dearly love my family, but I've had the house to myself most of this week, and it's been great! No specific places to go, nothing much expected of me. I know I'll miss my family when they move on, but today was a nice treat. I did a little work, and some much needed house work, but I've played a lot, too. I've even been playing some LPs today. Our player still works, but the belt is not quite right - just a tad off. Sometimes it sounds as if the musicians have had too much caffine. :) But it's nice to play some old memories.

I'm soon to have my dessert (yep, you guessed it - German chocolate cake) and then enjoy an evening cocktail with my name on it (yum!). Good times.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_P-v1BVQn8

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Walkies

I took a post-prandial ambulation today. As I walked, I got to thinking about how much things have changed in the 23 years I've lived in this house. I first got to thinking about Buttons the cat that used to live at a neighbors' house. It was a gray cat that loved to relax on their roof. I also miss the dog Frisky that used to live across the street. It was not the world's prettiest dog, but it was loyal to its owner. Then there was Skip, who was the dog on the corner. It was well trained, and would go to the edge of the yard, but knew not to step out of the yard. Its owner would do yard work, then sit on the bench under the shade of a tree, with Skip right there at his feet. He was a great dog.

Blue Eyes was another neighbor's cat, fluffy and friendly, but coyotes got to him. Wednesday was a tiny chihuahua that met an untimely end.

I noticed how big the trees have grown, ones that were just starting out when we moved here. The oak tree in our back yard was a nice tree 23 years ago, but now it is huge, and has to be trimmed back so its branches won't scrap the roof (thanks, Scott). One of the neighbors used to have a cement basket that was a planter, but the years were not kind, and it slowly fell apart. We used to have two peach trees and a redbud tree in our yard, but they too have met their end. I have even managed to somehow kill a photinia bush, which is hard to do. I seem to have a talent. :)

I also thought about all the pets we've had over the years. Daphne was my cockatiel that woke us up when we were living in the duplex that was next door to a fire. I'm eternally grateful to her. I was really sad when she passed away. Vincent was a parakeet given to us (thanks again, Scott). He was afraid of everything, but really loved his mirror. Waldo the sugar glider was funny. Jackson the bunny was so soft.

My kids have had many pets. Several fish, mice, guinea pigs, parakeets, a lovebird, a gecko, you name it. They have all been part of our family. They are all missed. But life goes on.

In My Life:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6TvegK-IUE

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Retcon

In the show Torchwood (in which everybody snogs Captain Jack) there is a pill they give to people who find out too much about their missions. This pill, called Retcon, makes the regular public forget about what they've seen and experienced. Those of you who have seen the episode Adrift, go here for an extra treat:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4862245/1/A_Bitter_Pill_to_Swallow

The other night, I had a dream about a former BFF. In the dream, we were still friends, and had gone to a conference together, even saving seats for each other. So sad to wake up and remember how much things have changed. Once trust has been lost, I don't think any relationship can be salvaged. It just hurts too much.

So, I wish I had some Retcon to forget the past, but still that trust I once had has died. In a song from Wicked, there's a song that goes "There are bridges you cross you didn't know you crossed until you crossed." I wish I had known more about what was going on, and decisions that were made that I should have been consulted about, but wasn't. I'm trying not to be so blind now. Still makes me sad.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5WNeBZ4rBU&feature=related